Mindfulness and Bullheadedness …

on Tuesday, November 18, 2008

It's pretty simple, really. All I've had to remember in the last five, almost six years since my gastric bypass surgery is go easy on the ranch dressing, no more than a taste of ice cream, and don't schnobble when you bake.

Do. Not. Schnobble. When. You. Bake.

Or you will regret it.

Eating the wrong thing is like depression on speed: you want to die RIGHT NOW instead of sometime, eventually … you lie on the couch praying for death until the dry heaves commence. 'Nuf said.

I made peanut butter bars for Nora last night.

I had to follow up Saturday night's debacle with a phone call on Sunday, and when that conversation was cut short by the vagaries of Wisconsin's cell phone service, followed up the follow up with a message … and then another yesterday.

I suspect Steve is learning something I learned a long time ago: it's easier to be angry than hurt.

At any rate … in the wake of yesterday's bullheadedness … every muscle between my lower back and my ribcage is screaming with outrage … and that other muscle in my chest is letting me know I abused it again, too.

I'll make sure to hum a few bars of "My Way" while I'm hobbling around today …